Tag Archive for ‘depression’

Don’t Try to Save Anybody

Once, I slept over my mother’s house and did yoga in her guest bedroom and walked to the bed and said out loud, “I need a savior.” I was looking for it in the form of a man. A man with money. A man who would calm all my fears. A man who would make it all better. A man who would right the wrongs of the past, who would […]

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What Does It Mean to Be Strong?

I met a psychic once who held my hand and said, “You’re enormously strong. You shouldn’t have been suffering with depression.” I don’t think she ever knew the strength it can take for a depressed person, whose body feels like it’s weighed down by boulders, to stand up and get a shower and make breakfast and drive a car. I am not depressed anymore, and I hope I never am […]

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Angels and Demons

There is so much beauty in this life, but we have to choose it. There is always a choice. Roughly a year ago, I was in a very dark place. My doctor gave me a medication that we both thought I needed, but which I didn’t realize would cause extreme depression. I woke up every morning with a gnawing in my gut, a feeling that I had screwed up my […]

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